{"id":5126,"date":"2026-05-09T22:34:18","date_gmt":"2026-05-09T20:34:18","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/duhovyrok.sk\/qys\/?p=5126"},"modified":"2026-07-12T22:44:35","modified_gmt":"2026-07-12T20:44:35","slug":"slovo-buzerant-tu-stale-nevymizlo-ako-keby-sa-predpokladalo-ze-kvir-ludia-odidu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/duhovyrok.sk\/qys\/slovo-buzerant-tu-stale-nevymizlo-ako-keby-sa-predpokladalo-ze-kvir-ludia-odidu\/","title":{"rendered":"Slovo \u201ebuzerant\u201c tu st\u00e1le nevymizlo. Ako keby sa predpokladalo, \u017ee kv\u00edr \u013eudia od\u00eddu"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Autor: Michal Dudo\u0148 \/ Ilustr\u00e1cia: Lukas Lee<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Text sme prv\u00fd raz publikovali v \u010d\u00edsle Zima 2025.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Boli dni, ke\u010f sa modlil, aby bol ako v\u00e4\u010d\u0161ina. Paradoxne, v kostole vo P\u0161urnoviciach sa nikdy nestretol s t\u00fdm, \u017ee by k\u0148azi rie\u0161ili politiku \u010di moralizovali o prototype spr\u00e1vneho \u017eivota. Mini\u0161troval, spieval v zbore, hral na gitare. Kostol bol pre\u0148ho bezpe\u010dn\u00fdm miestom: v\u0161etko sa to\u010dilo okolo komunity a jednoduch\u00e9ho posolstva \u2013 bu\u010fte k sebe dobr\u00ed. A\u017e nesk\u00f4r pochopil, \u017ee pr\u00e1ve cirkev dok\u00e1\u017ee kv\u00edr \u013eu\u010fom h\u00e1dza\u0165 najtvrd\u0161ie polen\u00e1 pod nohy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Modlil sa v\u0161ak najm\u00e4 kv\u00f4li \u0161kole. Mal svoju partiu \u2013 v\u00e4\u010d\u0161inou diev\u010dat\u00e1 \u2013, no o to viac sa stal ter\u010dom. Posme\u0161n\u00e9 pomenovanie ako \u201ebaba\u201c \u010di nad\u00e1vku \u201ebuzerant\u201c po\u010dul sk\u00f4r, ne\u017e vedel, \u010do znamenaj\u00fa. Nav\u0161tevoval umeleck\u00fa \u0161kolu: herectvo, gitaru, spev, tanec. Ne\u0161portoval. A pr\u00e1ve to sta\u010dilo ostatn\u00fdm ako d\u00f4vod pozera\u0165 sa na\u0148ho cez prsty.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Raz, ako piatak, kr\u00e1\u010dal zo \u0161kolsk\u00e9ho are\u00e1lu na autobus. E\u0161te v hlave nosil pochvalu od fyzik\u00e1rky za pr\u00edbeh o Andromede \u2013 pre pr\u00edsnu u\u010dite\u013eku netypick\u00fa \u2013, a te\u0161il sa, ako to doma povie. Vtedy sa k nemu pribl\u00ed\u017eilo p\u00e4\u0165 miestnych \u0161ikan\u00e1torov.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


\u201e\u010co sa smeje\u0161, ty buzerant?\u201c povedal jeden z nich. Obk\u013e\u00fa\u010dili ho a za\u010dali. Sotili ho, vrazili mu, strelili facky, no a\u017e kop do hrude mu vyrazil dych. Skon\u010dil na zemi. Neplakal, na \u010do bol a\u017e prekvapivo hrd\u00fd. Nechali ho tam le\u017ea\u0165. Napokon vstal, opr\u00e1\u0161il sa a \u0161iel na autobus, ktor\u00fd u\u017e d\u00e1vno odi\u0161iel. Podobn\u00e9 situ\u00e1cie sa opakovali. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nepoznal nikoho ako on, a tak sa nec\u00edtil bezpe\u010dne. Sna\u017eil sa zapadn\u00fa\u0165: mal frajerky, klamal sebe aj in\u00fdm, \u017ee to nejako p\u00f4jde. Doma pritom vyrastal v akceptuj\u00facej rodine. Nikdy nepo\u010dul rodi\u010dov \u010di sestru hovori\u0165 o kv\u00edr \u013eu\u010foch negat\u00edvne. Sk\u00f4r sa v kruhoch \u0161ir\u0161ej rodiny len \u0161epkalo o \u201estar\u00fdch rozveden\u00fdch mu\u017eoch, \u010do mali nie\u010do s mu\u017eom\u201c \u2013 v\u017edy potajme, s hanbou. Aj jeho u\u010dite\u013e herectva bol gej. Jedin\u00e9, \u010do si pam\u00e4t\u00e1, je tich\u00fd \u0161epot \u017eien na jednom predstaven\u00ed: \u201e\u00c1no, on je gej. Maj\u00fa to s n\u00edm \u0165a\u017ek\u00e9,\u201c Nevedel, \u010di to je pravda. Tr\u00e1pilo ho v\u0161ak, \u017ee nie\u010do tak\u00e9 int\u00edmne m\u00f4\u017ee by\u0165 pre niekoho \u010fal\u0161ieho z\u00e1\u0165a\u017eou. Ut\u00e1pal sa v predstave, \u017ee by\u0165 kv\u00edr je zl\u00e9, lebo t\u00fdm m\u00f4\u017ee ubl\u00ed\u017ei\u0165 druh\u00fdm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ke\u010f mal \u0161estn\u00e1s\u0165, prihl\u00e1sil sa na Pokec. H\u013eadal podporu, rozhovor, niekoho, kto by mu rozumel. Ozvali sa najm\u00e4 star\u0161\u00ed mu\u017ei. Chceli fotky, jeho telo. C\u00edtil vzru\u0161enie aj strach, najm\u00e4 v\u0161ak to, \u017ee v\u0161etko mus\u00ed by\u0165 tajn\u00e9. A potom pri\u0161iel prv\u00fd bozk. Nie s diev\u010da\u0165om, ale s chlapcom z tane\u010dnej. N\u00e1hodn\u00fd, spont\u00e1nny, elektrizuj\u00faci. Cel\u00e9 telo mu vibrovalo. A\u017e roky nesk\u00f4r si uvedomil, \u017ee to bol jeho prv\u00fd vn\u00fatorn\u00fd coming-out.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

V roku 2015 pri\u0161lo referendum za rodinu. Debata sa rozv\u00edrila aj v Byt\u010di, kam chodil s kamar\u00e1tmi. Prem\u00fd\u0161\u013eal, pre\u010do by jeho \u017eivot a \u017eivoty tis\u00edcov \u010fal\u0161\u00edch mali by\u0165 predmetom hlasovania. Hnevalo ho to. Prv\u00fdkr\u00e1t videl, ako spolo\u010dnos\u0165 politizuje existenciu \u013eud\u00ed, akoby boli probl\u00e9mom, o ktorom treba rozhodova\u0165.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


\u010eal\u0161\u00ed zlom pri\u0161iel, ke\u010f Kotlebovci za\u010dali do Byt\u010de chodi\u0165 kl\u00e1s\u0165 vence k rodn\u00e9mu domu Jozefa Tisa. Ich politika mu pri\u0161la odporn\u00e1, najm\u00e4 ako hovorili o LGBTI+ \u013eu\u010foch. Pochopil, \u017ee chce od\u00eds\u0165. Nie preto, \u017ee by ho niekto vyh\u00e1\u0148al, ale preto, \u017ee ak nechce zostarn\u00fa\u0165 s\u00e1m a popiera\u0165 s\u00e1m seba, mus\u00ed n\u00e1js\u0165 priestor, kde m\u00f4\u017ee slobodne \u017ei\u0165.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0160tudoval v Bratislave, chv\u00ed\u013eu \u017eil v zahrani\u010d\u00ed. Mal prv\u00fd vz\u0165ah, prv\u00fd sex, spoznal hist\u00f3riu kv\u00edr \u013eud\u00ed. Do P\u0161urnov\u00edc sa vracal len ob\u010das \u2013 a a\u017e s odstupom pochopil, \u017ee mo\u017eno krivdil dia\u013eke, kamar\u00e1tom, rodine. Ke\u010f sa vyoutoval, ni\u010d sa pre nich nezmenilo. St\u00e1le sa na\u0148ho te\u0161ia, ke\u010f pr\u00edde domov. A aj to, \u010do v sebe nosil roky \u2013 iracion\u00e1lny strach, \u017ee ho v\u0161etci ods\u00fadia len preto, \u017ee je gej \u2013, za\u010dalo mizn\u00fa\u0165.<\/p>\n\n\n\n



Hor\u0161\u00ed bol pocit, \u017ee o \u0148om vedia ostatn\u00ed v dedine. Ako sa na\u0148ho pozeraj\u00fa, ako ho vn\u00edmaj\u00fa. A\u017e \u010dasom zistil, \u017ee ve\u013ek\u00fa \u010das\u0165 si niesol v sebe: ako si jeho vn\u00fatorn\u00e9 die\u0165a pam\u00e4t\u00e1 kopance, nad\u00e1vky a posme\u0161ky. U\u017e prestal prehliada\u0165 nemiestne re\u010di star\u0161\u00edch ujov \u010di otcov\u00fdch bratrancov o \u201ebuzerantoch\u201c. Inak ich nevolali. Po jeho coming-oute s t\u00fdm prestali, no on sa st\u00e1le zam\u00fd\u0161\u013eal, \u010di s\u00fa tak\u00ed prostorek\u00ed len poza jeho chrb\u00e1t. Bol to typick\u00fd dedinsk\u00fd realizmus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ke\u010f si zapol Grindr, strach bol st\u00e1le pr\u00edtomn\u00fd: profily bez fotiek, bez mena, len vek. Niektor\u00e9 rozhovory viedli k stretnutiam, in\u00e9 k v\u00fdmene fotiek, \u010fal\u0161ie k obses\u00edvnemu strachu z odhalenia. Hanba bola st\u00e1le vo vzduchu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A predsa si uvedomil, \u017ee Byt\u010da a okolie sa zmenili. Vznikli alternat\u00edvne priestory, kde sa d\u00e1 c\u00edti\u0165 bezpe\u010dnej\u0161ie \u2013 hoci nie v\u017edy bez predsudkov zvonka. Ladov\u0148a v Byt\u010di \u010di Stanica Z\u00e1rie\u010die v \u017diline boli \u00fato\u010diskom nielen pre umeleck\u00e9 kruhy, ale aj pre kv\u00edr \u013eud\u00ed. No samotn\u00fd kv\u00edr priestor v Byt\u010di nikdy nevznikol. Akoby sa st\u00e1le predpokladalo, \u017ee kv\u00edr \u013eudia aj tak od\u00eddu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kv\u00edr t\u00e9my tu st\u00e1le nie s\u00fa s\u00fa\u010das\u0165ou verejnej debaty ani osvety. Slovo \u201ebuzerant\u201c nikto nevymazal. No z\u00e1rove\u0148 plat\u00ed nie\u010do in\u00e9: najv\u00e4\u010d\u0161ie bezpe\u010die c\u00edti dnes Michal vo svojej rodine a kamo\u0161stve, ktor\u00ed tvoria \u010fal\u0161iu gener\u00e1ciu. V synovcovi, ktor\u00fd jeho coming-out prijal s \u00faplnou samozrejmos\u0165ou a te\u0161il sa, kedy spozn\u00e1 jeho frajera. Michal je kone\u010dne hrd\u00fd \u2013 a oni s\u00fa hrd\u00ed spolu s n\u00edm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


A mo\u017eno pr\u00e1ve t\u00e1to mlad\u00e1 gener\u00e1cia, medzi studen\u00fdmi skalami a hust\u00fdmi lesmi severu, za\u010dne otv\u00e1ra\u0165 ot\u00e1zky bezpe\u010dia pre seba aj pre men\u0161iny, ktor\u00e9 kone\u010dne pozn\u00e1 zbl\u00edzka \u2013 alebo ich ani pozna\u0165 nemus\u00ed.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Autor: Michal Dudo\u0148 \/ Ilustr\u00e1cia: Lukas Lee Text sme prv\u00fd raz publikovali v \u010d\u00edsle Zima 2025. Boli dni, ke\u010f sa modlil, aby bol ako v\u00e4\u010d\u0161ina. Paradoxne, v kostole vo P\u0161urnoviciach sa nikdy nestretol s t\u00fdm, \u017ee by k\u0148azi rie\u0161ili politiku \u010di moralizovali o prototype spr\u00e1vneho \u017eivota. Mini\u0161troval, spieval v zbore, hral na gitare. Kostol bol …<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":21,"featured_media":5153,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[261,257,6],"tags":[266,674,138,685,408],"class_list":["post-5126","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-komentare-a-analyzy","category-literatura","category-pribehy-lgbti-ludi","tag-from-qys","tag-kvir-bedeker","tag-pribeh","tag-psurnovice","tag-slovensko"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/duhovyrok.sk\/qys\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5126","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/duhovyrok.sk\/qys\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/duhovyrok.sk\/qys\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/duhovyrok.sk\/qys\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/21"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/duhovyrok.sk\/qys\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5126"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/duhovyrok.sk\/qys\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5126\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5127,"href":"https:\/\/duhovyrok.sk\/qys\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5126\/revisions\/5127"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/duhovyrok.sk\/qys\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/5153"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/duhovyrok.sk\/qys\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5126"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/duhovyrok.sk\/qys\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5126"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/duhovyrok.sk\/qys\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5126"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}