{"id":3880,"date":"2023-01-18T12:16:35","date_gmt":"2023-01-18T11:16:35","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/duhovyrok.sk\/qys\/?p=3880"},"modified":"2023-01-18T12:17:07","modified_gmt":"2023-01-18T11:17:07","slug":"komentar-nebud-dalsie-cislo-v-statistike","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/duhovyrok.sk\/qys\/komentar-nebud-dalsie-cislo-v-statistike\/","title":{"rendered":"Koment\u00e1r: Nebu\u010f \u010fal\u0161ie \u010d\u00edslo v \u0161tatistike"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Autorka: Sabrina Katonoff<\/strong> \/ FOTO: Jakub Kov\u00e1\u010d<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Text sme prv\u00fd raz publikovali v \u010d\u00edsle Zima 2022.<\/em><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

K\u00fdm politici a k\u0148azi re\u010dnili na N\u00e1mest\u00ed SNP, skupinka vyhoren\u00fdch queer aktivistov a kamar\u00e1tov sedela ob\u010fale\u010d, pr\u00edzna\u010dne pod sochami antifa\u0161istick\u00fdch partiz\u00e1nov. Po\u017ei\u010diavali si cigarety, pili Kelt z plastovej f\u013ea\u0161e a navz\u00e1jom si pom\u00e1hali n\u00e1js\u0165 ten \u010fal\u0161\u00ed n\u00e1dych, aby sa na mieste nezosypali na tis\u00edc malink\u00fdch k\u00faskov. V tomto s\u00faso\u0161\u00ed queer l\u00e1sky ma jeden z nich chyt\u00ed za ruky a popros\u00ed ma, aby som nebola sama. Nikto z n\u00e1s nesmie by\u0165 v tak\u00fdto ve\u010der s\u00e1m. A aj ke\u010f sama som pou\u017e\u00edvala od okt\u00f3bra t\u00fato vetu pravidelne, a\u017e teraz si uvedomujem skryt\u00fa prosbu v nej, ke\u010f ju adresujete depres\u00edvnemu queer \u010dloveku, ktor\u00e9mu doch\u00e1dza n\u00e1dej a sila. Pros\u00edm, nebu\u010f s\u00e1m <\/em>sa men\u00ed na pros\u00edm, nezabi sa. Nebu\u010f \u010fal\u0161ie \u010d\u00edslo v \u0161tatistike.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Drah\u00e9 Queer,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

pros\u00edm, nezabi sa. Aj ke\u010f si mysl\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee si v tom \u00faplne samo, m\u00f4\u017eem Ti s istotou poveda\u0165, \u017ee mnoho, ak nie v\u00e4\u010d\u0161ina queer \u013eud\u00ed si pre\u0161la \u010di prech\u00e1dza t\u00fdm ist\u00fdm, \u010do Ty. Queer depresia \u2013 teda to, \u010do pravdepodobne preci\u0165uje\u0161 \u2013 je zn\u00e1ma ka\u017ed\u00e9mu, kto sa nec\u00edti by\u0165 s\u00fa\u010das\u0165ou cis a hetero v\u00e4\u010d\u0161iny. Strach z okolia, z no\u010dn\u00fdch, ale aj slne\u010dn\u00fdch ul\u00edc, vedomie, \u017ee na\u0161a existencia je pova\u017eovan\u00e1 za menejcenn\u00fa, ale aj hnev z pocitu bezmocnosti zmeni\u0165 svoju situ\u00e1ciu s\u00fa hlavn\u00fdm d\u00f4vodom queer depresie. A ke\u010f\u017ee depresia bol\u00ed a zo\u017eiera n\u00e1s zvn\u00fatra, siahame po sebapo\u0161kodzovan\u00ed v r\u00f4znych podob\u00e1ch, od alkoholu a sexu po drogy a \u017eiletky. Mo\u017eno aj Ty sa ju sna\u017e\u00ed\u0161 ut\u00ed\u0161i\u0165 t\u00fdmto sp\u00f4sobom.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Riskuj\u00fac, \u017ee budem znie\u0165 ako k\u0148az, chcem ti poveda\u0165: neromantizuj svoje utrpenie, nenechaj sa unies\u0165 kr\u00e1tkodobou slas\u0165ou a zabudnut\u00edm. \u010c\u00edm \u010dastej\u0161ie toti\u017eto t\u00ed\u0161i\u0161 boles\u0165 namiesto toho, aby si sa upriamilo na samotn\u00fd probl\u00e9m, t\u00fdm hlasnej\u0161ia bude boles\u0165, t\u00fdm viac ju bude\u0161 potrebova\u0165 ut\u00ed\u0161i\u0165. Ja sama som roky siahala po sebapo\u0161kodzovan\u00ed v t\u00fa\u017ebe um\u0155tvi\u0165 sa. Pomohlo mi a\u017e odrezanie kontaktu s t\u00fdmi, ktor\u00fd mi najviac ubli\u017eovali, terapia a \u00fatek z prostredia, ktor\u00e9 iba podporovalo moje mu\u010denie seba samej. Ne\u017e som si to v\u0161ak uvedomila, podarilo sa mi z\u00edska\u0165 n\u00e1beh na cirh\u00f3zu pe\u010dene a z\u00e1vislos\u0165 na liekoch, z ktor\u00fdch sa dost\u00e1vam doteraz. Pros\u00edm, bu\u010f m\u00fadrej\u0161ie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Depres\u00edvna t\u00e9ma, v\u0161ak? No predsa sa o nej mus\u00edme rozpr\u00e1va\u0165. Samovra\u017eda je tabu, o ktorej sa nechce nikomu hovori\u0165. Pre v\u00e4\u010d\u0161inov\u00fa spolo\u010dnos\u0165 existuje iba v dokument\u00e1rnych filmoch o hollywoodskych hviezdach, v smutn\u00fdch romantick\u00fdch pr\u00edbehoch a ak sa nedajbo\u017ee stane v ich okol\u00ed, samovra\u017eda sa st\u00e1va neduhom, nie\u010d\u00edm, po \u010dom siahne \u010dlovek s vn\u00fatorn\u00fdmi d\u00e9monmi<\/em>. T\u00ed d\u00e9moni s\u00fa pritom nie v n\u00e1s, ale v na\u0161om okol\u00ed. Queer \u010dlovek sa toti\u017eto nezab\u00edja preto, preto\u017ee je queer (samotn\u00e1 queer identita nie je \u017eiadnou ment\u00e1lnou chorobou, ktor\u00e1 by sama od seba zvy\u0161ovala riziko samovra\u017edy), ale preto, preto\u017ee cisheteronormat\u00edvna spolo\u010dnos\u0165 ho k tomu huck\u00e1.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Na\u0161i cishetero s\u00fadruhovia nikdy nepochopia, ak\u00e9 je dennodenne br\u00e1ni\u0165 nie\u010do tak\u00e9 z\u00e1kladn\u00e9, ako svoju identitu. S v\u00e4\u010d\u0161inovou spolo\u010dnos\u0165ou vedieme \u00fanavn\u00fd odboj, vojnu o vlastn\u00fa existenciu. Aktivista \u010di nie, sme n\u00faten\u00ed a n\u00faten\u00e9 sa br\u00e1ni\u0165, pripravova\u0165 argumenty v priate\u013esk\u00fdch debat\u00e1ch<\/em> s rodinou, kamar\u00e1tmi*kami, pr\u00e1cou a kadejak\u00fdmi osobnos\u0165ami, ktor\u00ed*\u00e9 n\u00e1m dookola pripom\u00ednaj\u00fa, aby sme pri snahe br\u00e1ni\u0165 na\u0161e \u017eivoty a \u017eivoty na\u0161ich queer bl\u00edzkych nezabudli na slu\u0161nos\u0165<\/em>. Niet sa \u010do divi\u0165, \u017ee niektor\u00ed a niektor\u00e9 \u2013 mnoh\u00ed a mnoh\u00e9 \u2013 z n\u00e1s to nezvl\u00e1daj\u00fa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mraz\u00ed ma pri vedom\u00ed, ko\u013ek\u00ed kamar\u00e1ti a ko\u013ek\u00e9 kamar\u00e1tky sa mi za posledn\u00fd mesiac priznali, \u017ee aj pre nich je \u017eivot prive\u013ea. S pla\u010dom alebo a\u017e chladne nezaujat\u00fdm hlasom hovoria o tom, ako sa im u\u017e nechce bojova\u0165, chc\u00fa sa vzda\u0165. Ukazuj\u00fa mi jazvy, kruhy pod krvav\u00fdmi o\u010dami, ruky, ktor\u00e9 sa tras\u00fa, aj ke\u010f ich dr\u017e\u00edm. Ukon\u010duj\u00fa svoj aktivizmus, utekaj\u00fa do h\u00f4r \u010di do zahrani\u010dia, inak by siahli po extr\u00e9me, ktor\u00fd ni\u010d nevyrie\u0161i.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mo\u017eno aj Ty utek\u00e1\u0161, alebo sa aspo\u0148 sna\u017e\u00ed\u0161. Utekaj. V dezercii niet \u017eiadnej hanby. No pam\u00e4taj, \u017ee tie rany si mus\u00ed\u0161 raz zahoji\u0165, najlep\u0161ie odborne. Aj ke\u010f m\u00e1me ako queer \u013eudia zl\u00fa sk\u00fasenos\u0165 s psychiatrami a psychol\u00f3gmi, ver\u00edm, \u017ee niekedy niet inej mo\u017enosti. Kamar\u00e1ti a kamar\u00e1tky dok\u00e1\u017eu ve\u013ea, ale maj\u00fa limity vo svojej znalosti, ktor\u00e9 by odborn\u00edk dok\u00e1zal doplni\u0165. Terapia pritom nemus\u00ed by\u0165 spojen\u00e1 s liekmi ani s individu\u00e1lnymi sedeniami \u2013 queer organiz\u00e1cie po Slovensku pre n\u00e1s vytv\u00e1raj\u00fa bezpe\u010dn\u00e9 miesta, kde sa m\u00f4\u017ee\u0161 stretn\u00fa\u0165 s \u010fal\u0161\u00edmi queer osobami, ktor\u00e9 mo\u017eno pre\u017e\u00edvaj\u00fa to ist\u00e9, \u010do Ty. Sk\u00fas ich vyh\u013eada\u0165, som si ist\u00e1, \u017ee Ti dr\u017eia miesto.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Drah\u00e9 Queer, si d\u00f4le\u017eit\u00e9, chcen\u00e9, nenahradite\u013en\u00e9 a nech si parlament hovor\u00ed, \u010do chce, si \u013eudsk\u00e1 bytos\u0165, ktor\u00e1 si zasl\u00fa\u017ei re\u0161pekt a l\u00e1sku. Ak ti ju nedok\u00e1\u017ee da\u0165 rodina, nahrad\u00ed ju queer komunita, ktor\u00e1 sa pokojne m\u00f4\u017ee sklada\u0165 z troch bl\u00edzkych kamar\u00e1tov a jednej transrodovej osoby, ktor\u00e1 v\u0161etko organizuje, ako to u\u017e stereotypne b\u00fdva. Komunita je toti\u017e zvyknut\u00e1 suplova\u0165 odopren\u00fa l\u00e1sku a d\u00e1va\u0165 ju tak, ako sa m\u00e1 \u2013 bezpodmiene\u010dne. Je tu pre Teba, rovnako ako s\u00fa tu pre Teba Tvoji kamar\u00e1ti a Tvoje kamar\u00e1tky \u2013 a pre t\u00fdch \u0161\u0165astnej\u0161\u00edch rodina.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Preto sa, pros\u00edm, nezab\u00edjaj. Nebu\u010f \u010fal\u0161ie \u010d\u00edslo v \u0161tatistike.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

S l\u00e1skou,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sabrina<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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